Most of the men that I have been with have only been out for one thing sex and in general they got it. People can call me a slapper but as I have been told several times we're on this earth for a short time not a long time so why shouldn't we do something that we enjoy. Sex is something I do enjoy so does that make me a bad person? So why can't I do what we want and who we want?
But the trouble with doing who we want is that we don't always get what we want. Yeah we do get what we want and need for a short time. When I say ashort time I mean that little time you spend with them in the disco and when they are sharing your bed it may seem like all night but is it? The big question is how long is allnight from the start of the disco or until the early hours of the morning or until the next day.
So what happens when you actuallly do fall for a guy hard and fast? What happens when you two just click do you just persue it or just leave it pass you by.And the fact that it is passing you by means that you are continuing to have meaningless sex with the persons work and house mate and his boss.
But what happens when you have a fuck buddy (aka the persons house mate aka Aidan) that you know is just using you, but you are using them too. BUT there is a little twist to this right you get with the boss (Aidran) you meet him but get disturbed by Aidan and your best friend.
Right fair enough it's nothing serious but why did I panic. But see I think that I may have over reacted but I just got it into my head that I wasn't in a safe place and I needed to get out of there. So I just started to cry and thank god two good friends of mine from work were there to calm me down but of course what did they think they thought that I had been raped but I hadn't Aidran couldn't do that.
The killing part is that I can never talk to Aidan again (no great loss) but if I can't talk to Aidran again I'll fucking kill someone because aidran is a pet a real sweet heart.
I really m beginning to think that I will never find someone I'll just being used and abused!!!!!!!!!
Any and all answers greatly accepted